Sticking to plain simple names now. Too much puffing myself up this week.>.<
You’re too impulsive, woman!
You think you can do any-bloody-fucking-thing you damn well like in the space of a day by heating up a plasma reactor and biffing (ie, throwing very hard) it into your objective! Sorry to damn well say, the world don’t DAMN – WELL – WORK – like – THAT! *the officer bangs fist into the table*
Ugh, sorry. Tired as hell, ma’am. It’s just, nothing’s getting done like this. I mean, everyone is saying that, but they’ve got it wrong. It’s not your administration, ma’am. It’s just the lethargy and this fatigrunkeness that’s killing us all.
Smart officer he is too.
I am ridiculously sorry for how this week has turned out. It’s been even more hectically up and down. I set out to reduce spam, to improve people’s quality of life, and all I’ve done this week is flood your inboxes with spam and rickrolls. *sigh*
It, of course, all comes down to “leth” (so chosen at the time because it sounds like meth-amphetamine, or p, a dangerous drug with global prevalence). It truly is a problem very much like drinking. Of course, it wasn’t until @DiscoPriest and @Palmetto_Rose commented over the past few days that I had to draw the effects out into the open. One day I ended up noticing a student with a Drug and Alcohol booklet from his health class. That got me thinking. I filled in an ALAC questionnaire, and should I have been a drinker… I would have been in the danger zone. I sleep that little! *rolls eyes*
The current Field Psychological Manual for the Laanatic Conglomerate, provisional/tenative revision, states the following:
The leth stage, encompassing what’s currently/provisionally Phase 6a of the sleep cycle, is extremely dangerous. It is severe and not to be messed with, and should be removed as soon as possible by a return to Phase 7, while mitigation should occur immediately by shutting all social links and .
How much of my thoughts relate it, make it sound like, drinking? A lot. Sure, it’s a recent, untrustable attribution, but a major discovery and paradigm shift. A direct, not indirect, not implied, philosophy change. But what I didn’t do, is put that info back in to be re-parsed *sigh*.
Ever wondered why I don’t drink? Because I’m so goddamn fatigrunk that I don’t need to be. When I’m tired, I end up pretending to be Ava. Although not anywhere near as good. Yeah, I’m a try hard :(
Now this is going to be reasonably pseudoscientific since I don’t specialise in this sort of field. But, here goes.
With even minor amounts of fatigue, more consciousness-energy has to diverted (somehow) subconsciously suppressing it, much like a police state, meaning less of one’s consciousness is available for doing proper tasks. It hits a lot of the rational and abstraction facilities (how? IDFN, I don’t do neurosciences… you chuck people into giant vats of magnetic fields for me and tell ME how all their neurons signal companies are working) and depletes pretty much every single sensor that I have. A memory drop out of the floor occurs, meaning perception takes a short hari-kiri break, timespans don’t work and invalidate rational analysis, and abstraction – planning, judgement, most reason – all go splat, because there is simply no way to remember all the features at once without forgetting something.
That’s why social reassurance is, rather ironically, the way to move back into Phase 7; because you feel like absolute SHIT. You will struggle to concentrate. Your consciousness will flicker between several threads, and this aint fucking hyperthreading, I give up on every new thing. As you realise what you’re doing, hopelessness, fear and remembrance will phase in and give you crap until you sleep. And when you wake up, you realise how futile they were and shallow; and flick them away with a single gesture.
Weird, isn’t it?
Alcohol also makes some quite drastic changes to tone. That drain to stay awake, to keep moving or get frozen up, and the almost physical fatigue it causes, shunts my brain to its back seat. I can barely type a post like this, in fact, I have no bloody idea how I’ve been doing them (writing like a tipsy person) all week… Priority one is actually going to be making sure that sleep stability is ensured by understanding the cycle, not by external psych. That’s probably going to end up being 1a, actually. How much things change… And you know what? Some smartass PhD has probably done all this work for me and I could have Google-f-searched it. That makes me sad, but that’s why I’m writing the blog, so I become the person you get from Google who explains it all! :D
I don’t feel like a girl at all when I’m tipsy. I revert into hyperscientific rational factual cold ruthlessly calculating. I don’t like that lack of control. I prefer my old, more vibrant-feeling self. I prefer its flow. And as I try and work towards that, while drunk, I get nothing done. Bare fragments last night streamed towards this post… but it was like, “oh shit, what have you done, look at the bigger picture”.
Is it proof?
It can return at any moment. Drunkeness can too. All you need to do is run out of sleep. All you need to do is imbibe alcohol. Both get you temporarily impaired in thinking, in some fashion (alcohol being a suppressant, likely has very similar actions on your neurons. I believe it’s physically harder to make connections). Both take a while to clear. Both make you do things you don’t want to. And so, even if both aren’t given the exact same treatment, they are extremely similar impairments.
All very well and good then, hypothesise that “Sleep=ImpairedAsDrunk“. Yeah, yeah, how can we objectively measure these results? How do we see them? How can we measure this? Experimentalism and scientific method have to lead to casuality; without proof, you’re nothing.
I actually had a great idea for a fatigue index. I forgot it promptly last night, but spelling and maths skills. You’re not quite as bad as drunk, but it makes a noticeable difference. I can personally tell when it’s time to shut it down; that’s typically 75% of any sleep I’ve had over the last 48 hours, with less than 16h total sleep, and about 90% with about 20h of sleep (but then I go into the explosive, mental-boom cycle which I need to cover).
What I’m picking at here, is that fatigue is as much a problem as drunkeness, and for dividends to pay off, it needs to be treated like one. Sleepless nights have the same social-communicative effects as binge drinking (not as much on the health side; mental health is more severly impacted here). To achieve mobilisation proper, it has to be the first to go, because these little mental terrorists like driving my mind to insanity and killing all my strategists. And they’ve risen by my inaction; so too, will they be quashed by my actions.